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location:: Home - Avalon, Boston victory-hour:: yes⚡️ pomodoro-blocks:: 2 wake-up:: 5:30 AM day:: Tuesday icon:: 📅 - **07:28 AM, day. Morning Pages ** - Mantra: Your person needs to be ‘knocked out’ cold. - I imagine my day to be... - Weird day yesterday. Laziness, Procrastination, Fight. Didn't feel like doing anything. Been few months I felt that way. - I think this is an adjustment phase. While I can do that, I get curious about if Saie even acknowledges it. Maybe she does. But does she? - Imma let go of small personal troubles. Let do. This is likely to be my jujitsu practice. - Come to think of it. I have been adamant as well. I didn't let saie have her way. She ain't letting go. I ain't letting go. I don't trust her decision making 100%. - Imma let go. There are few things I want. I guess defining and sticking to these few things is what wisdom is. - Morning victory hour 5 - 7 AM. I wouldn't put alarm to disturb anybody else's sleep - Bed time - 9:30 PM. My sleeping room needs to be dark, cold, without noise or disruption. Which is optimal for sleeping. This needs to be respected and not trivialized around me. This is very important to me. - I am particular about food I eat and the times I eat. I break fast on most days at 2PM. I eat 1 meal + smoothies. I need to be able to prep my breakfast and cook this meal without judgement or compromise. - Saturday is fast day for me. - **What comes top of my mind?** - Pain - Isn't life skill than a the skill to handle pain. **We are reacting one way or the other to pain.**. Sometimes perpetuating it even more. - ==Aren't we all just retaliating in pain?== - **Aren't we all fundamentally afraid of pain?** - Isn't #heartbreak than an exercise to handling pain? - How did I manage my heartbreak so well? How come I didn't react impulsively? - The pain was too deep and I was too weak. hmm. - I was ok to live with a hurting heart. It was my pain. I accepted it as mine. Hmm. - I was not afraid of it. Hmm. That's the key. - I was not afraid of this pain. It sucked. It hurt. But I was mine. The lover wan't but the hurt was mine #thatwasmine. - The love was mine. - - **What is smallest thing I can do for settling the top of mind thing?** - Learn to identify pain and my reaction to it. - **What is the smallest thing I can do to be more in line with who I am?** - Not reject pain. ==Own it== - **What first word pops into my mind when I think about today?** - Thinking. - Time with self. Time thinking. - ⚡️🙆 🧘📓 ☯️ 6 - 8:30 AM: #log🪵/victoryHour💪 collapsed:: true - 🙆 25 mins Morning Yoga #playlist/5AM - 🧘 20 mins Morning Meditation - ☯️ 10 mins Morning Tai Chi - 📓 60 mins Morning Page & Day Plan - 8:20 - 9:40 AM: Boo drop to Dana Farber collapsed:: true - Boston vs NYC - Boston feels like home! - The AC feels better. Colder. Authentic. Even a little intimidating. - The weather permits hot coffee and a fleece - People are smarter yet less arrogant - Bedrock of Creativity is a mess. NYC is a mess. - NYC is a nightclub. Boston is a library. - NYC people are externally motivated. Boston peeps are internally motivated. - 🖥 💼 9:50 - 1 PM: #workworkwork - 🥣 📺 🍽 1 - 3 PM: Break Fast collapsed:: true - Boston public market #eatingout - 😴3 - 4:30 PM. #afternoonnap😴 Wow. Totally passed out 😵 - 🍅🍅 reflection on Pain - 🚶🍽 📺 🛒 6- 10 PM: dinner #eatingout, grocery, tv and ice cream with boo - **22:29 PM Lights Off** - Get back to routine. The move was more disruptive than i imagined. needed monday and today to recover. let’s keep a 2 day proxy for any such situation - I passed out after lunch on the couch; wow. been a while sleep hot this hard. I take it’s as sign of health - will meet goddargs this week or next - Great day with boo today. droppd her to school :). She sleeping in my arms; with valls in her hand. Love - Pain collapsed:: true - #practice/Reading📖 Books/The Way Of A Superior Man - 2 Live With an Open Heart Even If It Hurts id:: 630591f9-64c6-4a82-855b-e52ab502f33f - Closing down in the midst of pain is a denial of a man’s true nature. - Notice if you react to a person or situation that hurts you by withdrawing, hiding, or closing in on yourself. #lowstatus - Contracted and closed in on yourself, you are unable to act. You are trapped in your own self-protective tension, no longer a free man. - Only when the front of your body is relaxed and opened, your breath full and deep, and your gaze unguarded and directly connected with another person’s eyes, can your fullest intelligence manifest spontaneously in the situation. - You must feel the entire situation ==with your whole body.== A closed body is unable to sense subtle cues and signals, and therefore unable to act with mastery in the situation. - - #0 Inbox - **12:03** quick capture: {{twitter https://twitter.com/clemmihai/status/1561773937066799104?s=12&t=I58YYyOpnP06DOh18-lFwQ}} -