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- Felt like the week was conquered by Wednesday so no wonder yesterday felt like Friday. And today #lazy Saturday. As much as I get frustrated at JOKR for the lack of high bar at things, I love it that I can cancel meetings, when I want, how I want :). Just cleared my entire day. I am not super happy about it to be honest. I want others to work hard and do the right thing. IS there a reason I believe they are not? Hm.. the sloppiness. a - location:: Home - Eugene, NYC victory-hour:: No😴 pomodoro-blocks:: wake-up:: 10 AM day:: Wednesday icon:: 📅 tags:: #2022/week31 - 🛏 😴 7 - 10:45 AM: Not happy with myself #callingspades collapsed:: true - I could be less stressed about things yesterday collapsed:: true - Tolga pr review - Overall handling of unexpected change to release build of adding a new feature collapsed:: true - I’m still hung up - I’m irked. Now I don’t know what to write - I’m upset - Things not going my way - Just realized - you can’t control everything. Then when you can’t control, you can’t expect. - And this mismatch - expectation without control leads to deep frustration and burnout. This was compass. The realization that how much of it was out of my control. Shared. People calling shots. And people are more random and unpredictable that the daily events lol. - And then we come to this release process. This loss of control is what stresses me out. Then shall I stop expecting? Shall I then retreat to what I can control? - If I can’t control the outcome. I shall rather not be invested. Else I’m taken for a ride. - Back to coding then - This is engineering - Ok then; I’m less stressed now. What changed? - Perception of control. Listening to voice of larger community then - “Lack of agency” seems to be ringing in my ears - **Agency encompasses both what we can directly control and also what we have influence over**. If you find yourself flowing haphazardly down a river in a raft, agency is your ability to pick up the paddle and steer. - Aha. #jujutsu enters. - Calmness. The smile of the zen master - #Every Day Kaizen - Come to think of it. I over did the P/NYC Wrap Up task from yesterday :). I should at least take credit for it Block Reference - We did 5 bitch. - Regardless, first time I couldn't complete by Daily 5 so let's not defend our failure to stick to the plan. I likely underestimate the social influence on me. **When I go out, I get out.** Hm. - **10:45 AM, day. Morning Pages ** collapsed:: true - Mantra: Your person needs to be ‘knocked out’ cold. - I imagine my day to be... - **What comes top of my mind?** - Getting control over code @work; getting control of all project @personal stuff - **What is smallest thing I can do for settling the top of mind thing?** - schedule 2 hour for each today - **What first word pops into my mind when you think about today?** - Sit down at your desk and get it done - **What is the smallest thing I can do to be more in line with who I am?** - practice #jujutsu all day with form - **What's one good thing about Saie?** - She is always doing her best <3 - **What is smallest thing I can do make Saie happy today?** - Praise her. Remind her that she is doing her best. - **What is one thing I like about myself today?** - I got attuned back to Self after my morning routing. - I am not clinging - **If I were guaranteed not to fail, what would I be doing differently?** - not be self conscious and not react from the "person" - not worry about failing; **JUST DO!** - **Exercise Small Thoughts** ✅ - ️🙆 🧘 ☕️ 📓 💼 📖 10:45 - 1 PM: Morning Routine - 🙆 20 mins Morning Yoga #playlist/hindirap - 🧘 15 mins #pranayama/kapalbhati #mooji/8pm - 📓 60 mins Morning Page & Day Plan - 💼 Joined a work meeting with team. Fly on the wall 🪰 - 📖 40 mins books/reading - Books/ The Kaizen Way - A subsystem for continuous improvement - Lesson from last night: do not leave house without a plan with an upper bound. Go out with Intent and Purpose - ⚡️ 🖥 1 - 2:30 PM: P/Algorithms 🥣 📺 🍽 2 - 4 PM: Break Fast - ⚡️🚶6 - 7 PM: #practice/2WW💪 - ⚡️ Every Day Kaizen collapsed:: true - #Accent Practice 10 words with D sound - do - product - did - dentist - - #jujutsu feel the force field - ⚡️ Daily 5 collapsed:: true - project review - work review - next step on P/NYC Wrap Up - bagel or buger? that's the question - clean some house stuff and feel good P/Move to Boston - Complete kaizens for the day. End the day with mind sculpture exercise on core fitness. - - prices ans culture -  - when we have a system with consistent assumption working people step up and start taking lead - like a family owned budiness where the process is visible; then all can take charge - #Realization process brings visibility