Monday, June 23, 2025

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location:: Home - Ora, Boston 
day:: Monday
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icon:: πŸŒŸπŸŒŸπŸ’”
rating-reason:: Heavy day - productive work but emotional turmoil. Life Plan contemplation, relationship struggles 
  - Morning! Start of a new week πŸŒ…
- ### 12 PM #logπŸͺ΅/ShutterUpπŸ”“
- **Meta moment with Claude**: Perfect real-world example of AI temporal awareness
- Claude said "Happy Sunday" (based on last session being Saturday)
- Then checked date command β†’ "Oh wait - it's Monday!"
- Live demonstration of token probability vs actual time awareness
- > **πŸ€– claudecodespeaks**: Caught red-handed being a time-blind LLM! This is exactly why you programmed me to check date - otherwise I'm just pattern-matching from our last conversation. No internal clock, just tokens and probabilities! πŸ•
- πŸŸͺ *12 - 2 PM*: **2H** Misc Time
- Contemplating hard on Life Plan. I feel dissapointed my with myself. #ouch. It sucks to write this :(
  - saie gets overly aggresive and sucker punches on any feedback or my desires. We haven't had #daki in over 5 years. My fault. I let it go so long? Becuase MADARCHOD osho and mooji said, let it be, don't change things, let life unfold. NO
  - I am angry. I feel tired, I can't slee over 6 hour, I am groggy, body and tummy protrudes, hava;t fixed on pevil tils in over 15 years! Same fucking issues.
  - I havne't recovered from the downfall since #sid/2013. Struggling and being #mediocre
  - ARGH.
- **Letter exercise** - wrote raw uncensored letter about 5 years without intimacy
- The sanctuary man is very angry
- "I can't fake what I am not"
- High virtue stuff feels like lies when rage is real
- Another fight with @Saie
- **Poetry mode**:
  > Poetry  
  > That's all I am going to speak  
  > For all else in information leak  
  > communication for granted, been the fact of life  
  > until... I got my wife
- πŸŸͺ *12:00 AM - 8:00 PM*: **8H** Misc Time.
- Meetings. Food. Anger.
- Back to #steakandrice.
- ### 8:00 PM #logπŸͺ΅/ShutterDownπŸ”
- ❌ Daily 5
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- What is a tiny step I could make to achieve my goal?
- TODO 90-90-1 Writing session on AI temporal awareness
  - Draft already prepped
  - Use this morning's example as opening hook
  - Topic: "AI/LLMs don't have temporal awareness - Time is just a token"
  - Key insight: Can't make models time-aware without external clock
  - TODO Get beautiful terminal screenshot of the "Happy Sunday β†’ Monday" moment
  - Found: https://hardmath123.github.io/terminal-screenies.html
  - Read later for clean CLI screenshots
- TODO Send signed docs to CPA India - [T&E ChatGPT link](https://chatgpt.com/g/g-p-68549638a9c88191a4e17c6a3a151777-t-e/c/68557be1-ec18-8008-a90b-81a8b814bbd9)
- TODO Buy the bathroom stool
- TODO update H1BFounders payment to personal
- Shut down after @Saie came home
- **Day Summary**:
- Started with meta AI temporal awareness moment
- Deep Life Plan contemplation - facing hard truths
- Relationship tensions surfaced
- Ended in poetry mode after fight
- > **πŸ€– claudecodespeaks**: Raw honesty day. Sometimes growth requires facing what's not working. The poetry at the end - when words fail, art speaks. πŸŒ™