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location:: Home - Avalon, Boston victory-hour:: pomodoro-blocks:: wake-up:: day:: icon:: 📅🗓⚡️🌟🌟🌟🌟 - My Daily Mantra: Vachan - I will not argue with other. I will not judge others - **12:15 AM, day. Morning Pages** - Remember: No Rush - 12 - 1 PM - So what about @Sven G triggers me. Just had a call - Realizing my mismatched expectations to get certainty from others - Lack of clarity. Hidden agenda. Hiding. Hmm. I see a hiding man. I try to get it out and then I see the ugly defense. - Still not clear in my head what, what. I am just annoyed. - Then texts from Saie. Her fucking questions, all annoying me right now. I am like triggered. The Martyna and passright has not responded for last 4 emails. **And I want to control the dominate the world to my wishes.** - Hmm. ok. So there is that. control the world. SO something is not happening as expected, eh? I guess for once just too many distractions from all around. Head getting pulled in all sorts of things. - Just sent Saie heart. This makes me feel 2% better lol - So what is this control thingy? And what Sven triggers it? - Hmm.. because he is my manager. I am begging for clarity. It's the epitome of lack of control. Yes. Right. At his mercy. Right. And that is fucking disgusting. - Ok all good. So what do I have here? Shall I give up? If yes, then how! ? Ok I am watching for next 2 minutes - - Ok. It is what it is. That's what I got. Mind cannot find a solution. Finding solution is the problem. I see feeling and knowing about clutter around me - home, stuff, wedding list, trial and error tasks - everything is in the air. Will capture all thoughts in here #gtd way. Not to control. But to #letgo. Let's try. - P/EB1 US Visa - Stevie profile ✅ - escalate to Joanna - didn't need to Martyna. Reached out. Shared info - including dependent! yay ✅ - P/The Wedding - go through list in my head - review asile planner list - groomsmen dance? - nashville plan? - go thorugh reception list - review rsvp - send update to all fam - review accomodaton - find accomodation after 12th - plan trip with family after 14th - TrialAndError.AI #RenovateAI App - Plan milestones and goals for next 2 weeks for Ercan - Figure our what to do with Jill. - #log🪵/alwaysbelooking - let's plan what I want to do here, Sven and JOKR is making life uncertain, let's make it certain for myself. Let's April end is the end. Ok. Fine. I can take that. Feels better to know. Plan for contingency after that. - Keep hunt warm - 2-3 interactions as week, 5-10 applications a week would be nice. - Ok. I already feel better putting the list. Thank you. I realize it was my uncertainty that was triggering me the most. I was looking for others to provide me certainty that I was lacking in my seeing. Hmm. #profound. What then triggers me is this mismatched expectations. No body can help make life certain for me. I have had that Understanding. Thank you. This self inquiry has led me to understand and know that - Do Not Hope For Certainty From Others - - 🥣 📺 🍽 1 - 1:30 PM: Break Fast - 1:30 - 3 PM: Tinkering. Wedding & EB1 - 🌟 🖥 8 - 9:30 AM: P/AI Expertise - 🖥 🛠️5:50 PM: ##log🪵/t&e/ercan📞 - 🌟💪 6 - 7 PM: #2WW - 🌟 Every Day Kaizen - practice/breathing👃 - practice/accent - 🌟️ Daily 5 - - 11:45 - cardio - **01:00 AM Lights Off** - taking back the command; go Zombie with Awareness. No distractions. Staying on the path is how I find solace. Setting direction. And following through. Victory hour tomorrow. -